take it easy take it slow.

so latley, covering up stuff doesnt really work.
it sucks. it just makes stuff feel worse. i have always hidden stuff and it has worked. not this time, not today. either way. today was my brothers birthday, he turned twenty seven. we went out to eat with my mother. it went ok. like always she bashed me and my brother, never has anything nice to say. oh well, its not like i need some compliments or anything. my life is pretty shitty. it sucks. i really dont know what to do anymore. i just want to have a good time, and stuff justs keep getting worse and worse. music doesnt help anymore. exept for the tin bucket boys, thats the most fun i have had in months. the only person who relates to some of the things i say is alecks. he is the closest thing i have had to a best friend since summer. this blog is pointless, but at least it makes me feel a little bit better. not a single soul reads it anymore, so i can post whatever i want. i just want to be on fire for something besides photography. its the only thing i really have anymore.

anyways.
go look at some art.